Biggest secrets and fears
What do you see when you look in the mirror ? My obesity, my fat on my thight, my legs, my stomach, my arm ...
Are you depressed ? Yes.
Ever tried to commit suicide ? Not at all.
Have you ever gone to a psychologist ? Nope.
I AM -
[x] anorexic
[x] ednos
[x ] bulimic
[ ] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[x] thirsty
[ ] drinking something
[x] Under 100lbs
[ ] starving yourself
[ ] participating in a fast
PEOPLE -
[ ] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[ ] call me fat
[x] say I’m skinny
[x] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[x] force me to eat
[x] say I eat too much
[ ] wish I’d eat more
[x] don’t know I’m anorexic/bulimic/ednos (Just two close friends, who don't really care about that)
I WISH -
[x] I was THIN
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn’t have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[x] I was under 110lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[ ] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was pretty
[x] I could stop being ana/mia
I LOVE -
[x] feeling hungry
[ ] seeing a difference when fasting
[ ] shaking
[ ] being weak
[x] losing weight
[ ] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] green tea
[ ] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself
APPEARANCE -
[x] I am shorter than 5’4.
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.
FAMILY -
[ ] I’ve sworn at my parents.
[ ] I’ve run away from home.
[ ] I’ve been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I’ve had children.
[ ] I’ve lost a child.
EMBARRASSMENT -
[x] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I’ve peed from laughing.
[ ] I’ve snorted while laughing.
[x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
[ ] I’ve glued my hand to something.
[ ] I’ve laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I’ve had my trousers rip in public.
RELATIONSHIPS -
[x] I’m single.
[ ] I’m in a relationship.
[ ] I’m engaged.
[ ] I’m married.
[ ] I’ve gone on a blind date.
[ ] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I’ve cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced.
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
[ ] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[ ] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
[ ] I’ve kept something from a past relationship.
SEXUALITY -
[x] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I’ve had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I’ve been kissed in the rain.
[x] I’ve hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.
HONESTY -
[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[ ] I’ve snuck out of my house.
[ ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[x] I’ve cheated on a test.
[ ] I’ve been suspended from school.
BAD TIMES -
[ ] I’ve consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I can’t swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[x] I shut others out when I’m upset.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[x]I’m anorexic or bulimic or have ednos.
[ ] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.
[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I’m addicted to self harm.
[x] I’ve woken up crying.
[x] I’ve lost weight.
[x] I’ve gained weight.
[x] My weight holds me back.
[x] Weight consumes me.
[ ] I’m at my thinnest
[x] I’m at my biggest.
[ ] I’ve lost weight and kept it off.
[x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back.
[x] My weight affects my mood.
[x] I weigh myself daily.
[ ] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me.
[x] I thrive on compliments.
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size.
[x] I feel happy when I’m hungry.
[x] I get depressed after I eat.
[x] I’ve skipped a meal.
[x] I’ve thrown food away.
[x] I’ve spit food out.
[ ] I’ve fasted.
[ ] I’ve taken diet pills.
[ ] I’ve used laxatives.
[ ] I’ve purged.
[x] I exercise.
[ ] I exercise so I can eat.
[ ] I work out secretly.
[x] I work out daily.
[x] I exercise to counteract eating.
[ ] I’ve fainted from exhaustion
I’VE DONE -
[ ] Weed
[ ] Cigarettes
[ ] Alcohol
[ ] Diet pills
[x] Pain killers
[ ] Anti-depressants
[ ] Ecstasy
[ ] LSD
[ ] Mushrooms
[ ] Speed
[ ] Cocaine
[ ] Other
[x] I keep my eating habits a secret
[x] I have an ED blog
[x] I look at thinspo
[x] I collect thinspo
[x] I condone pro-ana/mia sites
[x] I count calories
[ ] I’ve had negative intake days
[x] I avoid food
[x] I hate food
[x] I love food
[x] I wish I could have more control
[x] Being thin is my top priority
[ ] I don’t want to get better
[ ] I am in treatment
[x] I’m doing this for me
[x] I’m doing this for someone
[x] I’m doing this to be pretty
